Seasonal

It would be so much easier if I could just buy all my own Christmas presents. I'm not good at asking for things. I've hated it my whole life. Example: when my grandma took me and my brother to Toys R Us and said we could get anything we wanted, I wandered through the entire store feeling too guilty to pick anything and ended up with a little bag of bouncy balls that was by the cash register. I did make a list of books and other little things on Amazon and mailed it to my family. They asked!

Here are some things I would buy myself:

Diary from Gadanke.com.  $17.75



Kate Spade iPhone 4 case - $40.00

-or-

Penguin Books iPhone 4 case - $35.00 (this site has a lot of wonderful cases)

DANNIJO rings - particularly the gold and silver - $38.00 ea

Knottedrush Ring from Bario-Neal.  I'm obsessed with this slender gold ring.
I will probably end up buying it for myself if I can't get over it!

So, just a few little items I find myself dreaming about. In all honesty I'd be perfectly happy with a gift certificate to my favorite masseuse and a good bar of chocolate. Or four. Of each. But mostly the massage. Or chocolate.

Merry Christmas.

Food for thought

I wish you could plug me in like a cell phone.  I need recharging.  Any of these places would help.

Acropolis overlooking Assos, Turkey (2008)

 (my camera developed a spot, unfortunately.)

Assos



Twisp, Washington

I'm just feeling a little out of sorts. I feel impatient, but I'm not waiting for anything in particular.  Maybe it's just the shock that comes from it already being December and putting things on the schedule for 2012.  Ever since I heard a story to this effect on NPR I get a little depressed when I realize it's my perception of time that's making it seem to go so fast:

"The passage of time is about the ordering of events, things that happen one after another. Numbers, some say, are devices that were created to help us order time. Maybe, although counting chicks is also very useful if you are a hen. However, if we are to order events, we must remember them. Ergo, the perception of time is deeply related to memory. If our memories were to be erased, we would revert to the wonder of babyhood, where time extends forever. The more we have to learn, the more memories we make, the slower time passes. Routine, sameness, makes time speed up. Since routine is not usually equated with fun, this seems to go contrary to the "time flies when you're having fun" dictum."

I want to learn more. I need to learn more. I miss learning so badly it hurts my heart. I need a new routine.